1. Introduction (continued)

(Or worse, sometimes, all I'd see would be





empty space.)


25 random facts about me:

1. I've cracked my head open when I was a little kid.

2. At worst, I am pansexual. At best, I'm asexual.

3. I'm mildly (very, very mildly!) agoraphobic.

4. I love mango cheesecake.

5. I play the piano (9 years), the violin (9 months) and the flute (2 years).

6. I cry when I take pills with just water; I can't swallow them that way! I take them with applesauce so that I don't know when it goes down my throat.

7. I actually listen to classical music while I do my homework.

8. I have a soft spot for short adults.

9. If I were forced to choose between the two, I'd rather be homosexual than heterosexual.

10. I'm an origami purist. I don't believe in cutting paper.

11. I feel a strong dislike towards haircuts.

12. Gym is actually my most unfavourite (and worst!) subject. I'm below the class average.

13. I have broken a violin.

14. I have damaged the piano in my sister's room by playing too intensively.

15. I have only read two crease patterns in my whole life.

16. I lie to myself often.

17. I'm afraid of fish (living or cooked).

18. I have an irrational fear of picked flowers.

19. When I say to the teacher that I'm going to "the bathroom", it
means that I'm going to the library to check my email and read dark
poetry on deviantART.

20. I am a Susan Boyle fan.

21. Secretly, I want hugs all the time, but I'm too shy to ask for one.

22. I wish I could write beautifully.

23. I'm a terribly quiet person in real life; I live inside my head.

24. I go through my days feeling a lot of guilt, embarrassment and shame.

25. I prefer Kawasaki roses to real flowers.

I won't say the most important things
because I don't think that they were meant to be
captured

and put into words.

1. Introduction

Today,
our hidden stopwatches are standing
over a thousand miles apart


I'm not so sure if I'm a fan of introductions, but here goes.


Hello, I'm Sedentaria. I feel quite uncomfortable blogging right now, because I don't know what to say at all. Hopefully, nobody in my real life will find this blog and read it. I plan to go on almost daily rants about who-knows-what, whatever goes on inside my head.


There are too many things that I want to say, but can't. It's been like this my whole life. Here's hoping that it'll change...


The truth is that —

...


1. Introduction
2. Love
3. Light
4. Dark
5. Seeking Solace
6. Break Away
7. Heaven
8. Innocence
9. Drive
10. Breathe Again
11. Memory
12. Insanity
13. Misfortune
14. Smile
15. Silence
16. Questioning
17. Blood
18. Rainbow
19. Gray
20. Fortitude
21. Vacation
22. Mother Nature
23. Cat
24. No Time
25. Trouble Lurking
26. Tears
27. Foreign
28. Sorrow
29. Happiness
30. Under the Rain
31. Flowers
32. Night
33. Expectations
34. Stars
35. Hold My Hand
36. Precious Treasure
37. Eyes
38. Abandoned
39. Dreams
40. Rated
41. Teamwork
42. Standing Still
43. Dying
44. Two Roads
45. Illusion
46. Family
47. Creation
48. Childhood
49. Stripes
50. Breaking the Rules
51. Sport
52. Deep in Thought
53. Keeping a Secret
54. Tower
55. Waiting
56. Danger Ahead
57. Sacrifice
58. Kick in the Head
59. No Way Out
60. Rejection
61. Fairy Tale
62. Magic
63. Do Not Disturb
64. Multitasking
65. Horror
66. Traps
67. Playing the Melody
68. Hero
69. Annoyance
70. 67%
71. Obsession
72. Mischief Managed
73. I Can't
74. Are You Challenging Me?
75. Mirror
76. Broken Pieces
77. Test
78. Drink
79. Starvation
80. Words
81. Pen and Paper
82. Can You Hear Me?
83. Heal
84. Out Cold
85. Spiral
86. Seeing Red
87. Food
88. Pain
89. Through the Fire
90. Triangle
91. Drowning
92. All That I Have
93. Give Up
94. Last Hope
95. Advertisement
96. In the Storm
97. Safety First
98. Puzzle
99. Solitude
100. Relaxation